Wednesday, October 18, 2017

from left to right: Timothée Chalamet - Lily Rabe - Anthony Quintal - Lili Reinhart
Right on the first scene, this movie is already captured my attention. The opening scene, featured Rachel Stevens (Lily Rabe) sitting on the theatre room, crying and starring on the stage. When I watched it for the first time back in earlier 2017 - while I was binge watching indie movies, I thought this movie didn't get attention as it should be. It got me so hard on the first scene, kept asking myself what this movie was going to be about. 

Miss Stevens is about a 29 year old english teacher and three high school student who went to a two days trip for attending drama competition somewhere in California. The journey started with the road trip - which they got to know each other more than just teacher and students. Rachel tried so hard to keep the boundaries between her students while three of them were just as comfortable as they talked to their older friend. At first, I wasn't sure why Rachel kept such a boundary while there's nothing wrong with being close with students (I was a high school teacher once) but as the story went, I managed to understand the puzzle.


Friday, October 13, 2017

I'm so cheesy, am I not? 

Anyway... despite my cheesy title to put more rainy season mood, here are the songs that I'm binge listening. Enjoy and stay warm! xx

  1. Alps - Novo Amor, Ed Tullett 
  2. Bedford Falls - Ford.
  3. Flowers - James Spaite 
  4. Hold On - Chord Overstreet 
  5. Hymn - Joel Porter
  6. Like Real People Do - Hozier 
  7. Perfect - Ed Sheeran
  8. Thin - Aquilo
  9. Wallowa Lake Monster - Sufjan Stevens
  10. Where's My Love - SYML

MOVIE | BLADE RUNNER 2049 (2017)

Thursday, October 12, 2017

One of the most anticipated movies this year has finally came to the theaters all around the world and I'm pretty sure, if you're a movie geek like I do, you already watched the film. I already watched it multiple times and still craving for another movie night out. That's how good this movie is. You want to watch it over and over and over.

Blade Runner 2049 is a cinematic miracle! This movie reminds me why I love movie, the pleasure of watching a movie, the joy of analyzing it, the satisfaction of writing a review. The movie that brings so much gratification in every moment of it. 

I have no words that possibly can explain how much I adore - no, worship this movie. This is that one movie which is perfect from every form: storywise, casting, cinematography, visual effects, sound mixing, directing, costume design, original score. This movie is everything I want in a futuristic themed movie.

Ridley Scott's Blade Runner (1982) is obviously something to die for, but this one, however, in the hands of Denis Villeneuve, the second installment became the magic of cinema. Although it supposed to be a sequel, this movie actually its own movie. This movie doesn't relying on the first movie. From the first aerial shot with the perfect score from the one and only, Hans Zimmer, we already know this movie will last forever. It's not something that is easy to forget, it will be extremely impossible.

Okay, let's begin. Shall we?


Wednesday, October 11, 2017

I love answering this kind of random questions, it's fun! Here are my answers to twenty two questions I found on tumblr

1. How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are?
-- I'd be 17, young and free. 

2. If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do?
-- because we tend to rely on what society think, what society want and expect us to be not what WE want us to be. 

3. What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world?
-- the narrow mind society have. 

4. If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?
-- I'd be working out more, eating healthier, telling all my closest ones that I love them so much and thanks for helping me to evolve. 

5. Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?
-- doing the right things. we really need to take care of this.

6. If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be?
-- always be yourself no matter what.

7. What’s something you know you do differently than most people?
-- that I stay true to myself, not being what society want me to be. most people around me still pretending to be someone they're not.

8. What one thing have you not done that you really want to do? What’s holding you back?
-- I want to go skydiving, it looks fun but dangerous at the same time. I just can't go, it gives me anxiety even to look at the pictures.

9. Are you holding onto something you need to let go of?
-- yes I am. I really need to let it go.

10. If you had to move to a state or country besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why?
-- I want to move to London, England. I always a big fan of it, such a great city to live. Everything is so beautiful. but I will have my own experience about this moving thing soon, although it's not England but it's okay.

11. Why are you, you?
-- because this is who I'm working to be. I'm a slow learner, but I do learn. I'm a work in progress, I keep evolving to be better person each day. 

12. Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you?
-- when a good friend moves away. if i lost touch with a friend near me, there must be a reason. good friend won't losing touch no matter how far the distance but when my good friend moves away, I can't hug her every time I need her. It's sad. 

13. What are you most grateful for?
-- to be who I am and where I am right now. basically to be alive and having dreams to live. 

14. Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones?
-- lose all of my old memories. 

15. Has your greatest fear ever come true?
-- it hasn't and hopefully it will never happen. 

16. Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset? Does it really matter now?
-- I couldn't recall. I assume it's not matter anymore now because if it mattered, I would remember. 

17. What is your happiest childhood memory? What makes it so special?
-- the first time I went to the beach with my parents. it was also the first ever long vacation we had, I was 5 or 6 that time. I remember I was so happy, I felt like I was the happiest 5 year old in the planet because I was in the perfect place with most important people in my life. 

18. Have you ever been with someone, said nothing, and walked away feeling like you just had the best conversation ever?
-- yes I have. 

19. If you just won a million dollars, would you quit your job?
-- no, I wouldn't. 

20. What is the difference between being alive and truly living?
-- being alive is just existing. truly living is being alive and keeping your dreams alive, working on your dreams and make meaning on your live with all of your love ones. 

21. What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?
-- I would ask many questions as I have about every single thing in the world so I could always learn and learn and learn. 

22. Decisions are being made right now. The question is: Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you?
-- I'm making my own decision because this is my life, my sky, my limit. 


Monday, October 09, 2017

This is just a glimpse of my casual afternoon when I'm out and about on brunch and lunch with my friends. There are some days I eat very healthy but of course, there are days that I just eat what I'm craving for. Today is one of those unhealthy days. I ate in two different places because I met up with different people so... Life is good ;)

What's your favorite food? Thanks for reading! xx 


Sunday, October 01, 2017

I always share my favorite songs every month but I never really share which songs that are life changing for me. These songs have really special place in my heart, either because the memories or just basically great songs to listen to.

You can see that my music genre is basically everything. I can go from Elvis to Lewis Del Mar here. I mean, I don't have specific genre to listen, I love good songs. That's about it.

Enjoy part 1 of my list. I will definitely make part 2 soon ;)


Saturday, September 30, 2017

*written in Indonesian

Hai! Hari ini aku akan review film pakai bahasa Indonesia karena film yang akan aku review juga film hasil karya salah satu sineas Indonesia, Joko Anwar. Bercerita sedikit, jujur aku tidak lagi sesering dulu menonton film tanah air karena kebanyakan film-film yang tayang di bioskop itu mengandung hal-hal vulgar, sangat tidak masuk akal dan jatuhnya jadi norak. Misalnya, suster keramas? terus kenapa?

Joko Anwar adalah salah satu sutradara favoritku, karena film-filmnya itu bikin penonton ikut berpikir, ceritanya selalu unik dan tekniknya selalu berkesan. Itulah kenapa aku memberanikan diri nonton film Pengabdi Setan yang merupakan hasil remake versi 1980-an. Pssttt... aku bukan orang yang suka nonton film horor, apalagi horor Indonesia karena setannya sangat menyeramkan.

Omong-omong, review ini aman buat yang belum nonton karena no spoiler ;) 


Wednesday, September 27, 2017

I finished this book within a day - no, actually less than 20 hours. None ever recommended this book, I'm glad this book found me. It was on my iBooks for so long, only God knew when I downloaded it. As long as I can recall, I love the cover. The idea of simplicity and purity, yet seems to reach out for you as it can actually speaks its story. Maybe this was why I had it for so long. I don't know. 

So, I read it sometime around 11 p.m.-ish, scrolled down to find something to read before go to bed and I just picked it up randomly. In few pages, this book already pulled me in. Like, really made me wondering what's going on here?

Every Last Word by Tamara Ireland Stone is a book about Samantha McAllister, a popular girl at her school who is actually hiding her OCD and intrusive thoughts. She looks very normal with driving cool car, doing makeup, a swim athlete, but also mastering at acting and keeping secrets from her best friends. Not everything we see is the truth, right?

The story about mental illness, how to cope with that, how it affected our personal life, how people react to it, there are so many books about that and I've read that. But honestly, I've never read a book about mental illness this honest, raw and beautifully written before - not about OCD, at least. Correct me if I'm wrong. 

Every Last Word teaches me about how to outshine my own darkness. 


Monday, September 25, 2017

If there's a sentence written on my forehead, it would be like this: ask this girl when she's getting married

This question started back two years ago, when I just graduated college. From where I live, the traditional trajectory of adult life goes like this: go to college, meet the one in college, graduate college, get married, have children, live happily ever after. 

God, please help this girl. 

So, when I graduated college, people started to ask "when I'm going to get married?" as if my bachelor degree in Education with great GPA that was enough to earn not one, but five letter of acceptance from prestigious universities in UK, US and Australia was not big deal. 

When people comment on my instagram story, when I'm hanging out with my family or friends, they have this obligatory to ask: where's your boyfriend? or you haven't moving on, have you?

Then... Every single time I go to a wedding (family, friends, colleagues, etc) - read carefully, every single time, there are people there, waiting for me to ask the most important question they have, that they're going to die if they didn't ask with those smiles and judgmental eyes, "when are you going to get married?", "where's the ring?", "where's your fiancé?" and any other variations of the same question that is tickling my ears so disgustingly. As if there's no ring on my finger is some kind of cancer. 

More so, when I continue my master degree, people say, you're over do with your education that's why you don't have time for relationship. What? Seriously? As if my intention, my passion, my motivation, are not something to look up to. As if, a girl who chooses to be well educated, be smart, is not someone you should want to be. 

After awhile, instead of getting used to, it's gotten to the point whenever I go, I just don't want to see people in the eyes. It makes me feel insecure and anxious. Every once in awhile, I ask myself, when I'm going to get married? or why I haven't found the one? I feel embarrassed how left behind I am because some of my friends are already married, or at least engaged. Then, I get really angry. I thought I'd be going insane.

Most people ask nicely enough, but after 1 million time you've heard it, it becomes very annoying, disgusting and intrusive. It implies, my achievements in education, my passion, my dreams, are not something that great enough to celebrate, at least, deserve to be congratulated. I'd rather to answer a question about my cat, or my school, or where I'm going to be next year. Anything but that question, honestly. 

Sure, they might be curious on my personal life, but I keep my personal life for myself and closest ones and I want to keep it that way. I don't have to make a poster said that I have moving on. I don't have any obligatory to explain everything to anyone. Just because I don't share it on my social media, doesn't mean it's not happening. 

From my perspective, marriage is not something you should forced. Everyone will get married eventually, it's just the matter of times. Everyone will get their best chances and whenever it is, none should've questioned it. And by none, I mean, nobody. Not a single person on earth should asked when other people are going to get married. 

Why? Because everyone has different goals, different life paths, different intentions. I'm still young and to be frankly honest, right now with the state of commitment that I have, I want to focus on my education, my career, loving people rightly before I decided to get married. I want to be young and free, to live my life to the fullest, because I know what I want, what I'm going to do, what my goals are. I will be married, one day, but not today, not tomorrow, maybe not even in this year.

Because marriage is a personal thing and every personal thing shouldn't be asked. It happens between two people who are in love, not between a person and society. It's more than just a ceremony, more than a beautiful ring on a finger, more than invitation, more than legal document. 

So, here's my humble request. Please stop asking me when I'm going to get married. It's so annoying to hear. Ask about my education or my career because slow and steady, I'm reaching my highest point so far and I want to be appreciated. 

I personally believe the life we have created, the person we're becoming as continuously a work in progress, the person we're evolving, is enough for ourselves. There's no need to ask the label, the binding legal documents. It should be enough for everyone, shouldn't it?

Thanks for reading! xx


Sunday, September 24, 2017

For some reasons, this post never made it on my feed. I don't know why but I created this post back in the 17th (as you can see on the picture below). This is my typical Sunday morning at home, when I don't have any plans to hang out or anything, just chill at home and working on my blog. I thought I want to show you guys a glimpse of my chill Sunday morning in pictures. Hope you guys like it ;)

How's your Sunday morning? Wish you have an amazing day and amazing week ahead! xx


Wednesday, September 20, 2017

The last time I shared 'what's in my bag' was back in 2015 and things have definitely switched around. When it comes to everyday casual bag, I like to keep it simple with neutral color so it fits with everything I wear. I got this handbag from Bershka and I think it's very simple, handy but still fits everything I need when I'm out and about. The nude color is also perfect for everyday because I like to keep my style simple and neutral. In terms of things that I carry around, I also like to keep it handy but still necessary. 

Wanna take a peek inside my bag? Here's what I have for most of the days ;)


Sunday, September 17, 2017

To say that I don't love makeup as much as I love movie would be such a vast understatement. I'm a junkie for both and I have no shame about it. If you know me, or at least, read my blog quite often, you know I love Marvel so much. Although I didn't read the comics, I do watch every single movie they have from the worst to the best so far.

A friend of mine told me that The Face Shop, a well known Korean beauty brand released an entire range of their collaboration with Marvel. What did I do? Of course I checked it out! As I did my research, they have from eyeshadow palette, mascara, eyeliners, lipsticks, nail polishes, cushion foundation (of course, we're talking about K-beauty), and complete skin care for men. 

I am so impressed with how speedy this K-beauty brand to adapt their product from one of the biggest comic-movie based imprints. I thought, it should be American's makeup companies. But hey, no hate, I love what they do! I figured, Marvel is also well known at Korea. To be frankly honest, the only product that really catch my attention is the Captain America inspired cushion foundation. The eyeshadow palette is kinda okay, some basic color they have nothing impressive. I'm not a big fan of K-beauty mascara and eyeliner either. I'm basically not a big fan of K-beauty makeup product but I have this urge, no, desire to at least try this range. Even if I didn't like it, the packaging is so darn gorgeous, isn't it? 


Saturday, September 16, 2017

My skin is freaking out lately - it gets drier and also breaking out every now and then, although I'm not on my period, it happens. I figured, it's because the weather is getting worse, so hot on the day and later in the evening it's pouring rain. 

Here are products that I've been using constantly to help my skin heals. 

L'occitane Hydration Face Mist - this product is so good! I keep repurchasing, just to have it handy at my home in case I need it, like these days. The formula helps to moisturize and heal dryness and even sunburn (I once had a really bad sunburn few years ago, and this product helped so quickly!). I don't use it as my regular face mist, but I do like to use it when my skin is at its driest. 

Clinique Dramatically Different Moisturizer Gel - I know I supposed to use the lotion one, but honestly I hate the feeling of it. The lotion feels too thick on my skin, makes my skin sticky not like the Moisture Surge one. However this gel one is absolutely amazing! It makes my skin smooth, moisturizes it well and of course, my skin is getting better now.

Laneige Water Bank Essence_EX - I like to use this product before my moisturizer and wait at least one to two minutes so the product sinks into my skin. It moisturizes my skin really well. I'm no longer have dry patches on my skin. 

L'occitane Almond Supple Skin Oil - like I said, my skin is angry these days. I literally have dry skin in all over my body and it's not something I'm proud of. I even have dry patches around my armpit area. Thank God, this product existed! It really helps to moisturize my skin. I love to use this product right after shower and use it as my regular lotion before bed. Next morning, my skin is so smooth!

What's your current favorite products? Let me know! :) 


Sunday, September 10, 2017

Hello? How are you? Yes, I mean, how do you feel after Game of Thrones season 7 finale? 

Yeah, it's quite heartbreaking but also satisfying

I finally finished this review. It took me quite long time because first, I rewatch the entire season 7. Second, I need time, okay? It's hard for me to wait until 2019. If you're an OG fan like I do, you would know. We've come so far. We've been through a lot. Like, a lot.

Raise your hand if you're traumatized by Game of Thrones! 

Not quite sure how to start to review this season so I'm just gonna say it. I love it as much as I love the previous seasons. It's epic, for sure, but still, as we've come so far, I expected more.

Before I jump into the review, I want to mention that this is a spoilers filled review. If you haven't watch the season, or maybe the series, you don't want to read this post. I also proudly say this is my second collaboration with my best friend, Asri, go check her blog as well ;)


Friday, September 08, 2017

Friendship, in my perspective, is not defined by how often you talk to someone or you meet him or her. It's not always about sharing the same hobby or similar personalities. No matter how long you've know her or him, friendship can happens. 

Based on my personal experiences, friendship needs mutual respect and loyalty. It builds on mutual feelings: trust, care, and respect. If your friends don't have those three, then they're not your friends at all. You need to trust, care and respect them as much as they are. Friendship is a two way connection. It has to be equal because you can't build friendship only in one side. It has to be two sides working together equally.

Friendship must make you better person in every aspect: better learner, worker, lover, daughter or son, or parent maybe. 

However, some circumstances can test the friendship you've built, like for example: distance. You or your best friend move to another city, country or maybe continent. It really is testing your friendship.

My very dear best friend, Rika, moved to Australia last January. It was really hard for me, because I'm one of those people who tend to rely on people I love and she's one of them for sure. It was hard for her, too. The first two months, every time we called on FaceTime, I cried. I was crying like a baby, and I had no shame on it. Long short story, we used to be apart. It's not that hard now that we've found ways to maintain our friendship healthy and strong. 

Maintaining faraway friendship is challenging. It's not easy, of course, but it is not impossible. Being away from your best friend doesn't stopping you from being a good person they need. It doesn't mean to stop being close. As I learned to maintain mine and Rika's friendship, it just needs to figure out new ways to cope in. 

Here are lessons I've learned about having my dear best friend being 5000 km away: 


Wednesday, September 06, 2017

Whoaaa... how long is it been since I shared my go to makeup look? I can't even remember! Recently, I've been loving the way I wear my makeup. If you know me, you'll know I always go for simple, natural makeup look. For the past two to three months, I've been embracing what I have. I barely wear makeup, to be honest. 

If I do wear makeup, this is what I look. It's so easy, so natural, and most importantly I feel good about myself.Without further do, let's hop into the tutorial... well, sort of ;)


Friday, September 01, 2017

Hello September! Hello new slate, new chances, new playlist ;)
  1. 1901 - Phoenix 
  2. Breathe - Lauv 
  3. Come Back For Me Jaymes Young
  4. Could You be Home - Heffron Drive 
  5. Feel It Still - The Portugal.The Man 
  6. London, After the Rain - High Highs 
  7. Lost on You - LP
  8. My Type - Saint Motel 
  9. Take It Easy - Eagles 
  10. Winter Song - Daniel Josefson 

What songs you've been loving recently? Let me know! xx


Thursday, August 31, 2017

Despite the constant change on hair and makeup trends, some of the best timeless advices we have gotten come from an incredible woman called Mom. I learned so much about beauty stuff from my Mom, at age 46 her skin is incredible, she looks younger and definitely so beautiful inside and out. 

I remembered back when I was four or five, I loved watching her getting ready. I would be sitting on the vanity while she was applying eyeshadow or lipstick. My love for makeup grown so much and as I get older, I can do my own makeup thou it's still far from good at it. 

There are some beauty advices that I keep in mind. Without further do, here are beauty tips from my momma... 


Sunday, August 27, 2017

When it comes to lipstick, it's hard for me to resist the temptation to buy new one whenever I go to Sephora or drugstores. It's hard and too often the lipsticks that I purchased go to someone else because I have too much. 

However, I have some products that I always reach for and coming back to. These lip colors that I mentioned are probably my holy grail lip colors, they always on my makeup pouch or the ones that I always reach for whenever I do my makeup. 

  1. Bourjois Rouge Edition 12 Hours in #33 Pêche Cocooning : this has been my everyday lipstick for almost a year! I love how it has velvet-y formula, very comfortable on the lips and last quite long. This color however is very gorgeous on my pale lips, compliment my skin color and perfect for everyday look. 
  2. Clinique Chubby Stick Intense in #07 Broadest Berry : this one is a new product to me but dear God, I've regretted the times I didn't try this range on the first place. It's amazing! The formula is very comfortable and moisturizing as it claimed, the color pay off is gorgeous! Broadest berry is like my color, suits me perfectly. It's perfect for day to night makeup look.
  3. MAC Lipstick in Syrup : this lipstick also my favorite for everyday use. The lustre formula makes the product very comfortable to wear and also moisturizing! Syrup is very beautiful, enchanting color. It compliments my pale lips and skin, very flattering and perfect for every makeup look. I love this color because it's perfect for both day and night time makeup look! This one is really worth for money ;)
  4. Revlon Colorburst Matte Balm in #250 Standout : this is probably my most favorite red lipstick especially if you have pale skin like I do. Although it's matte formula, it doesn't make your lips dry, it moisturizes instead. The color pay off is great, so beautiful! I think if I had to give birth on red lipstick, it would be this lipstick. It would be painful for sure, but it would be pay off.
  5. Revlon Ultra HD Matte Lipcolor in #635 Passion : I wouldn't say it's a matte lip color because it takes longer to dry. I think it's a velvet formula instead. Although the formula takes time to dry, when it completely dries, it doesn't transfer. So long lasting, it lasts on my lips for nearly 12 hours even thou I'm talking, drinking and eating much. This lipstick seems like didn't care and stay where it should be. 
color order: from right to left (Bourjois - Clinique - MAC - Revlon)

What's your favorite lipstick? Let me know I would love to try! Thanks for reading, xx 


Monday, August 21, 2017

I was planning to do this list after Avengers: Infinity War but you know, my post would be up sometimes around 2020 and I can't wait. Today I'm gonna share this part 1 instead, along with the reason why this following movies are worth A+ from, basically, everyone.

These movies are some from my long list of movies that I want to share with my children, even grandchildren one day because I do know my little girls and boys are just gonna be just like me, someone who loves movie so much. 

Please note I only watch the movie, I have never read the comics - because honestly, I'm not a big fan of comic and don't know where to start... 


Friday, August 18, 2017

One of the most important things I've learned during this period of time, when everything is pretty much surprising and stressful, is actually to be always happy. I'm at my best when I'm happy and pretty much sure so does everyone. 

Being happy does change everything. I'm more productive, better at working on my post and I find it easier to stay focused. There are few key points of my habits which, for me personally, act as great rituals to be constantly happy or at least, keeping me in good mood. So here are things I like to do, and still trying to do everyday:

Wake up early 

I know sometimes it gets too much and too hard to do, but once you get used to it, waking up early is not so bad. It feels good instead! It gives me great start to begin my day, gives me more time to do more activities. I find with waking up early, I can do so many things in a day, stay focused and more productive. 

I usually get up around 5 to 6 a.m, it's the best time to wake up because it's not too early. I also try to do this every day, not only on weekdays but also on the weekends and if I'm on vacation.

Drink a glass of water once you wake up 

This becomes my habit for nearly fifteen years. My mom taught me long time ago to always drink a glass of water after you wake up to wake my brain and my body, also to cleanse all the way from mouth to your bladder because when we're sleeping, we didn't drink or eat anything for at least 5 to 6 hours, well unless you're sleep eating. I also like to make a hot lemon water - it's easy, just squeeze half of lemon to get the juice and add hot water. It's so refreshing, great for your body especially your digestive system. 

I find when I wake up and reach my glass on the side table, it feels so refreshing once the water come down on your throat. My morning voice is not raspy, my skin is even more radiance and glowing. My hair is healthier! 

Make your bed

I hate having my room messy. So once I wake up and drink my water, I pull my hair up into a bun and make my bed. If I didn't make my bed, I know I'm going to be super lazy and just gonna crawl under the comforter for hours. It's not a good habit.

Massage your face 

This is a new habit to me. The way I do it is not as complicated as it sounds, just give your face a simple little massage, sometimes I pinch my cheeks gently to make the blood flow. This is also really helps to wake me up. 


Never skip breakfast - even when you're planning to stay at home all day. I love breakfast, it's probably my most favorite meal time. Lately, I've been cooking something very easy like toast and scrambled egg, or peanut butter and jelly sandwich. So easy but still filling me in. 

Working out 

Please do not working out with weight loss on your mind. From my perspective, it's not healthy. It is okay if you want to lose your weight but do not ever put it as a pressure. I've been there and it never worked out. Always working out because you want to be healthy and make it as a habit. Find work out that really suits you, make you feel good because you have to enjoy it. No pressure. I work out for 30 to 40 minutes a day. 


Yes, seriously. Always take a shower every morning, it really refreshing and recharge your body so when you start your daily activities, your body is on full mode ready.

Get on skin care routine 

When you do everything right, you'll get the result. Always start with cleanse your face with a gentle cleanser in the morning - I like to use Bioderma Sensible H2O to cleanse any oil and product residue from the night before, then get on with my moisturizer, eye cream, lip balm and sun screen if I'm going to go out. A little beauty tip, I like to do my brows too even if I didn't going out. I feel put together and make me feel good. 

Are there any routines that make you happy? I would love to know! Thanks for reading, xx


Monday, August 14, 2017

Before I started this blog, I was more active on tumblr, interacted and made friends with lots of people from all around the world. There's something about being friends in internet that really unique and in certain ways, my internet friends actually understand me more than my real life friends. 

As I wrote blog and posted the links to my tumblr as well, my readers grew bigger each day and I couldn't be more thankful for that. My internet friends were my #1 readers, they even asked me to write one or two posts, asked my opinions about beauty related or movies (because those are stuffs that I talk the most on my blog) and then my readers just frequently send me messages about literally everything - things that are related to my blog or posts, or even not related to my blog like my personal life, and their personal lives.

We build the trust together. I earn their trust - and if they asked me anonymously, it didn't matter. For me, when people take their time to send me messages, it means they really want to know from my perspective. I should appreciate it. 

I am fully aware that my readers mostly are younger girls and boys, the rest are coming from any age, sometimes older than me, and I couldn't be more thankful for that. I always want to help people but I know, I can't so I hope with my blog at least I can help one or two. Even if it didn't help at all, it is somehow entertains or giving my readers inspirations.

Within nearly eight years I become a blogger - or in my perspective, a person who spend too many times on internet, writing her mind and post it on blogger website - lots of time, with people reading my blog, following my tumblr, instagram and even my snapchat, it is often people assume my life is perfect. 

It is completely wrong. 


Saturday, August 12, 2017

It's kinda late, I know. Like the old man said, better late than never. Right?

Following Rise of (2011) and Dawn of (2014), War for the Planet of the Apes is the third and rumored to be final installment of Planet of the Apes series, taking event two years after Dawn of with Caesar (Andy Serkis) a highly intelligence ape with his fellow apes being hunted by the Colonel (Woody Harrelson) who has so much anger and hate toward the apes.

This movie is unapologetically dark, wild and frightening. 

From the very first scene, this movie is already kicking it with intense war between humans and apes, and it's kinda explain what happened since Dawn of. Humans and apes are still not getting along and the Colonel still asshole. From this point of view, humans are the enemy and me, as human, really drown into apes' feeling, the confusion, the hate, and lots of times, I am scared to what humans will do. I mean, I learn about humanity from animal.

Since the beginning, when Will (James Franco) started this whole thing - well sort of - the story line is so thorough, there's never rush, never lack of background or plot holes, it has been always deep and well written. The trilogy builds from the ground and it's a slow phase for sure but not boring whatsoever, instead it's pulling audience in ever more. The construction of this movie is brilliant. From Rise of to Dawn of and now, War for - they are all one gigantic movie. Like I said, it's so rare for a trilogy to be such a perfect continuity from the beginning. I wouldn't mind to watch 6 hours long movie if it was this good. Take my money!

More of the story, it goes even more intense and so dark, I was totally forgot my lemon tea and popcorn, thank God I didn't forget to breathe. Sorry for lots of annoying silly thoughts, but seriously, I can't even think at least one scene that wasn't make my jaws drop. Not even one.
I love every minute of this movie. It's genius! 
On cinematography wise, it is jaw dropping obviously. The motion capture work is so real, like, super real. When I watched this movie, part of my brain was thinking about how dark this movie and the other part thought about how the special effect teams working on this motion, making something that I knew it wasn't real, I knew it played by human but on the screen, all of the Apes were just like that, the apes. No less, no more, so freaking real.

I can't say this enough but this is, by far, the best trilogy ever made on earth. I honestly think this is truly a masterpiece. It's very rare on the trilogy that every movie on it is equally great.

Thanks for reading! xx


On daily basis, I prefer body mist or cologne instead of heavy perfume. I want something that smells dan feels refreshing, make me feel like I just step out from the shower. More importantly, I hate having my skin feeling sticky. 

I've done this post in the past, back in 2016 and of course, I change quite a bit. For the note, I'm aware all the products I have here are coming from Victoria's Secret. I love their products so much, especially for fragrances. The smell is never too strong, always refreshing and some even relaxing. 


Wednesday, August 02, 2017

I never see myself fancy a war movie before, not until my most favorite director Christopher Nolan announced that he was going to release a war movie in mid 2017. Of course I have to watch it because first, it's Nolan's movie. Second, Nolan and his brain are really good couple. Third, Nolan and Hans Zimmer? Bomb! 

The amount of loving his creation becomes unhealthy now. I mean, I lost count on how many times I've watched The Dark Knight trilogy, alongside his other movies. I also watch Interstellar before bed because clearly I want to throw myself into blackhole and other dimension. please excuse my sarcasm.  

Watching Nolan's movies always give me some sort of experience, but Dunkirk is actually a whole new experience. It's something I have never experience before. Within around 90 minutes (which is shorter than Nolan's previous movies), since the beginning, when I just sat my butt on the cinema, then few minutes later the movie started and the first ever scene started, the soundtrack banging on the ears, holy moly...

Dunkirk is spectacularly horrifying, so raw and real. I literally lost count how many times I jumped on my chair. This movie is a new level of art combined with Hans Zimmer's beautifully eerie soundtrack. It is a masterpiece! 
Before I tell you more about Dunkirk, I want to mention this post is part of my collaboration with my friend, Ilham Hamzah. I talk about the movie, while he talks about the comparison between the movie story line and the actual event. Please kindly check his blogpost. I had a great time watching and discussing this movie with him! Thank you, Hamzah xx

This is also a SPOILER FREE review. I got you, guys ;)


Tuesday, August 01, 2017

Welcome the month of August! New month, new playlist, enjoy xx
  1. Ahead of Myself - X Ambassadors
  2. Bad Luck - Adam Barnes
  3. Born to Make You Happy - Britney Spears 
  4. Change - Lana Del Rey 
  5. Lay It on Me - Vance Joy 
  6. Please Keep Loving Me - James TW
  7. Rainbow - Louis Baker
  8. Unfaithful - Rihanna 
  9. The Woods (acoustic) - Hollow Coves
  10. What Breaks My Heart - Parachute

Full playlist on my Spotify 


Wednesday, July 26, 2017

For the past two months, I've been playing around with new beauty products - some of them work really well and I love it which ended up on my go to basket, some of them are just okay and some of them are not working for me. They might be worked on other people. 

Here are products that I'm currently loving... 

Tarte Limitless Lippies Tarteist Creamy Lip Paint in Mani and Perf - you guys know my lip color selection right? Like I can't get enough with these range of color. Mani is my current day time lip color and Perf is my night time. They're subtle, pigmented and long lasting! I also find it very easy to use because the applicator is small, so it can reach my inner part of my lips without touching my teeth or my skin.

Anastasia Beverly Hills Modern Renaissance Palette - oh dear God, I feel so dumb to not buying this palette since beginning. So beautiful, so pigmented, so perfect! Ah! My favorite colors are tempera (I used as my base color and to highlight my brow bone), vermeer (such a beautiful shimmery pale pink for inner corners and also to highlight brow bone and the bridge of the nose), primavera (gorgeous gold shimmery color! love to put it all over my lids, make my eye color pop), raw sienna (my perfect transition shade) and warm taupe (for more darker outer v of my eyes). I haven't tried every color in this palette, but so far, this is the only palette that I'm reach when I get ready.

Etude House Zero Sebum Loose Powder - I use it to set my under eyes and it works amazing! The powder is very white but when you apply and blend, it disappears. It has no color on it, so you don't to have worry about it adding color on foundation. I like to apply using powder brush instead of pad that comes with. This powder is also works as dry shampoo! What a win-win ;)

St. Ives Apricot Scrub - what a life changing product! Ever since I use this scrub two and half months ago, my skin is seriously getting better. No more whiteheads, no more little bumps (like texture on my skin) and also it makes my skin even more radiant and glowing!

Secret Key Natural Daily Pure Sun Cream SPF 50+ - I used to wear prescription sun screen from my dermatologist, I don't use other prescription from her, I went dermatologist because of my dermatitis and also asked for sun screen. My skin is very sensitive and I had bad experience with  drugstore sun screen. Until my friend came to my house, we had a little beauty chit-chat and suggested to try this product. At first I was afraid, but she convinced me that Secret Key only use natural ingredients (most of Korean beauty products do). So I gave it a try there months ago and so far, I didn't have any problem. Instead, I feel more comfortable adding sun screen on my morning skin care routine. This sun screen also work as primer, leaving my skin feels very smooth and glowing.

What beauty products you've been loving right now? Let me know! Thanks for reading xx


Tuesday, July 18, 2017

Eating Disorder is not a new issue but yet, I feel like there's not enough conversation about it. Personally, I've never experience it, although there was one phase I didn't like how I look, how my body was. To be able to overcome such a negativity that I had, is probably one of my biggest achievement. Back then, I didn't tell anyone, I just kept to myself because I was so embarrass about that. 

Right now, I am a working progress. I'm accepting what I have, working toward more positivity than things that I can't change, because I am perfectly imperfect this way. 

Few months ago, I watched a trailer on Netflix youtube channel. To The Bone, starring Lily Collins and Keanu Reeves. The trailer was pretty self explanatory at that time but what made me really interested and looked forward was how true the story was since the beginning. There are so many times we've been fooled by movie trailers (not gonna talk about that, so upsetting) but I knew this trailer was not. 

There were conversation about this movie - pro and contra, how people were looking forward because "it looks promising" and the fact that the writer and director, Marti Noxon and Lily herself are both have the same experience about eating disorder in the past and they wanted to share this story to the world. But of course, some people were worried and even upset for no reason (because the movie hadn't come out yet) said that this movie would glamorizing eating disorder just like the others. 

I am not a person who believe what people say unless I see it myself. So here's my honest thought. 


Thursday, July 13, 2017

This morning, I wake up feeling different. It was a fine Wednesday morning on 06.10 am, the sun rose, bright and beautiful. The clean air gathered around me as I opened up my windows. My room still smelled like fresh cotton sheets and baby powder because I lighted my candle last night. I still on my months off of college. What was so different? 

Oh. Last night, I made a decision. A decision that would probably change a part of my life. One thought, one decision to all of my decisions. 

I decided to let go

It was hard, like really hard pain in the ass. It is still hard. I cried so much last night, but as I finished crying my eye balls out, I smiled. I felt like... tons of weight on my shoulders were being taken and I felt free. 

God, I feel free.

Today, I embrace the memories of my past. I will never forget all those memories - it made me smile once, it made me cried once. Now, it makes me feel grateful to have those as part of my journey. I feel both blessed and grateful with all life has given to me, and I'm excited for what life will gives me in the future. 

It takes courage to let yourself trying and fighting for what you think the best for you. It also takes lots of courage to let go. 

I am fully aware that I did the best as I could at that time, it wasn't my loss because I did trying and trying and trying to understand the circumstances, the feelings, the future, the consequences. Now, I'm ready to let go.

As I clear my heart and my mind, I clear my future road ahead for miracles and happy surprises as well. I am so proud of myself for being brave enough to let go one thing that used to make my heart bloom and also tearing it apart. I'm proud to be me. I'm proud of what I believe.

Never feel sorry to make yourself and your life better. It's yours, so the decisions are also yours. 

Live and love your life, xx. 


Friday, July 07, 2017

Spider-Man! Spider-Man! 

I am so happy to finally hear that theme song again! It's been... what? Ten, twelve years? Crazy, right? 

Spider-Man: Homecoming directed by Jon Watts, is the new movie of this timeless hero which everyone loves - including myself. I'm growing up with Tobey Maguire's Spider-Man, which I think great movies (yes, three of them). However, I'm myself not really fancy with The Amazing Spider-Man, with Andrew Garfield as Peter Parker. I'm not disappointed with Andrew, it's just... off at some point. He's too handsome (nothing wrong with that irl honestly, i'm big fan!), too cool for a nerd and... yeah, not really Peter Parker we all wanted. I love the movie, but not really? It doesn't make any sense. I know. I'm weird. 

Homecoming takes time after The Avengers (2012) - we get too see Toomes (Michael Keaton) is taking care of the aftermath, Stark tower is burned and all that stuff that happened on New York, then fast forward to during Captain America: Civil War (2016) because we all see Peter with his vlogging skill to take us along his journey of recruitment, Happy drives him to the private jet off to Berlin, Peter sees his new Spider-Man suit for the first time (which is so darn awesome!) and during the battle with team Cap. It all happened so gracefully fast! Then, few months later we see him on his normal, ordinary teenager life.

Not really.


Wednesday, July 05, 2017

Lol, no I'm kidding. It probably takes two minutes tops but I like my post name to be pretty dramatic so... 

Lately I've been loving bare face whenever I go, like running errands and grocery shopping. I found with less makeup, my skin breathes easily, and also helps to get better. People around me compliments my skin, even some of them asked "what foundation do you use? it looks very beautiful and natural!" and they're very surprised when I answered "I don't use foundation today and it has been a week now!" 

My skin is breathing. It's glowing and healthier! That's the secret. Still, even when I don't use many makeup like I usually do (not really) I do wear bits of makeup and I loving it!


Saturday, July 01, 2017

Let's welcome the month of July! Here are songs that I'm currently really into, enjoy! xx
  1. 2U - David Guetta and Justin Bieber 
  2. Beautiful Thing - Grace VanderWaal
  3. Broken-Hearted Girl - Beyoncé
  4. English Rose - Ed Sheeran 
  5. Feeling Good - Michael Bublé
  6. Friends - Ed Sheeran
  7. Heart - Sleeping At Last 
  8. Perfect Places - Lorde
  9. Ship in a Bottle - Steffan Argus
  10. Walking the Wire - Imagine Dragons


Monday, June 26, 2017


If you know me or read my blog often, you know I'm a big Marvel fan, but as much as I love MCU and all the characters... there's one movie that became my least favorite from all. Honestly, I don't necessarily hate it, nor I love it as much as the others, this movie works okay I just hope it would be better... IRON MAN 2 (2010) it is. 

I'm not entirely sure what is it, but I just... think there's something off in this movie. As a whole, it didn't fit right. I have watched Iron man (2008) and Iron Man 3 (2013) for more than ten times, but with this movie... I don't reach as many as usual. I only watched it two times: first when it was on theatre which was my first time watching it, and second when it aired on HBO. 

This is actually weird because I love Tony Stark, I love the idea of Iron Man, and this movie was Black Widow's debut who is my favorite character... but yeah, guess it's not really for me.

The 30 day movie challenge is done! Yay, I'm so glad to take part in it. It has been a fun month, until next time guys! As always, thank you for reading mwah :*


Sunday, June 25, 2017


One of my weaknesses was easy to give up. I used to listen to what other people say or might be say or think, rather than did everything because I wanted to, because that was my goal. I used to fear being hate because I couldn't give what society wanted. But ever since I watched Pursuit of Happyness (2006) back in sometime around 2008 or 2009, I realized something. 

This is my life. This is my happiness. I am fighting for things that I want
This movie really opened up my mind about making plans, achieving dreams, and live your life. It taught me that no matter how hard the situation is, no matter what life throws at you, if you believe you can and you change your dreams into plans, nothing is impossible. 


Saturday, June 24, 2017


There's no way I can answer this challenge with only one movie. So I just gonna answer how I want it  to be ;)

STOKER because... how can you not falling in love with India and Charlie Stoker's piano duet? 

thank God for Dustin O'Halloran and the song, Searching for Home in the movie LION. the most beautiful thing my ears ever listened!

and... this following movies are those which Hans Zimmer created for. who can't falling in love with everything Mr. Zimmer created? Nobody. 





last but certainly not least...  JURASSIC PARK because come on, who didn't memorize that theme song? yes, the park theme song. 


Friday, June 23, 2017


Of course, no doubt, The Breakfast Club! This is such an amazing, relatable movie about teenagers and their problems. It packed with deep characterization, very thoughtful lines, and of course, cool soundtrack. 

This classic 80's movie has deep topics such as depression, suicide, drugs, alienation, materialism, sex and parental mental and physical abuse. Those topics sound very inappropriate but yet they're happen in real life. Personally, I think this movie shows the best way to communicate about those dangerous themes. Despite the heavy topics, this movie is very engaging at portraying teens and their problems in a very realistic way. This is such a must watch movie of all time!